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July 2011
See what your followers think of you.
BLACK = I would date you.
GREEN = I think you’re cute.
PURPLE = I don’t talk to you but i really love your blog.
ORANGE = I don’t like your blog.
RED = I hate you with a burning passion.
YELLOW = I don’t know you at all.
BLUE = You are my tumblr crush.
PINK = I think you are unattractive.
GREY = I wish you would notice me.
DO IT DO IT DO IT….please? I’d love ya forever!
Pathetic.
Really? again? You have to ruin my night again You fucking whore… You’re a liar, a slut, a deceiver, a bitch, and a crazy fuck to think i wouldnt figure everything out. I hope eventually, you get a taste of your own fucking medicine. This the quietus of you being the least bit important to me. Looking back on it, i don’t understand why i ever thought of you as more than a passerby. Go fuck yourself. Go fuck yourself and die, you’re dead to me on the inside anyway. Why should i give you the time of day to just fuck me over? Why should i have ever given you any hope at all? I’m done with all your bullshit, your lies, and mostly the fact that you actually pretended to care. The saddest part of all of this is that i actually did care, but i don’t expect you to know because you never payed attention or ever even gave a fuck. It’s just embarrassing that i cared and gave you my all, and its a sickening feeling. I just hope one day you feel this pain, and you have to endure and suffer through all of this yourself. Let me know when all this happens to you, b/c then i wont give you any of my fucks and see how you fucking like it…
The weird thing is that you've never left my mind...
and I never fucking crossed yours.
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What a nice surprise.
That was random, although nice.
I see lots of things
I observe people. I know lots of people due to what they say and do. I’ve figured out most of the human brain. Well at this age, for the most part. I’ve figured out what people will say or do, and how they act and will react to things. Apart from this i associate myself with the minds that i can’t get inside, because those are fun people and it’s exciting to have them as friends.
My point in posting this is to say that, i see many things such as relationships. We just got passed freshman year. I see all these girls, with their boyfriends and they put them up so high on these pedestals. And, as a guy, it’s nice to be loved unconditionally by a girl but sometimes these girls take it too far. They say things are going to last forever, and who am I to judge them? It’s their relationship, and who knows? It just might last forever. But the problem that i have is when these guys end it in a snap, and i see a close friend hurt beyond belief. I don’t blame the girl for loving the guy, and i don’t blame the guy because i am one and i know all the feelings we get. It’s just a shame that this happens, and that i have to sit here watch it.
You're ridiculous.
Are you fucking kidding me? You’re one of the most hypocritical people i fucking know. You did drugs all the time; so now that i’ve been caught once, i can’t do anything ever because you assume that everywhere i go and everyone i know has to do with drugs. You drink every fucking night to get away from your troubles and you have the nerve to judge me on something that’s barely a drug? I didn’t smoke weed to get away from my troubles, because i barely had any. I did it because it eases my mind, it takes away some of my fears, and it lets a weird person like me calm down and act normal for once. It kept me sane, although i wasn’t addicted and i don’t need it. The real thing that i do to get away, is go to shows with my real friends and family. You’re not family, because you don’t accept me. On the other hand, the people that i associate myself with that just so happen to be straight edge ARE my real family. They accept me for who i am, and they don’t give a shit about what i do. They joke around but know when to be serious and help me out. I don’t care what you have to say. I’ve missed 2 shows now because of you, and now i’m going to miss warped tour and the all stars tour because you don’t understand what the fuck you’re talking about. These shows with my real family is what i do to actually get away from you and your ridiculous beliefs you crazy fuck. And now i’m being subjected to drug testing whenever you feel like it. You’re literally ruining my life little by little. Congratulations, i officially don’t want anything to do with you or your stupid fucking “family.”
On a Sunday night.
I feel a little bit better. This cast still fucking blows, but i’m getting the hang of it. So many beautiful amazing girls in my life and im finally acting right about them. Not as immature as i used to act with them. I’m happy about what i do and say now. I’ll handle what i have for now, but things will get better over time. They know who they are, and they know whats going on, and everyone is okay with that. It’s nice to have peace among friends every once in a while.
Erika left to palm springs with Kimberly… I miss her. But she’s only gone til next monday, and then i get to see her again. So i’ll be okay. haha. I have driving school this week and its going to blow. I need to get this over with so august can come, we can move, and Erika can come back.
My injuries are healing faster than expected, and my parents aren’t tripping over my being caught up so much anymore. Things were bad, but getting better really fast. The new house is gonna be sick as hell. Great shows in August that we’re all going to, and i’ll have my cast off. Then Hawaii on the 22nd with Robert. Things should start getting better. And by the end of the year, mah big sis is coming to stay down here. So excited. That’s it for now, hopefully things will follow through.
Reblog if you want a kiss. Right. Now.
I want a scene girl...
- straight hair
- piercings [anywhere]
- pretty eyes
- skinny
- a little shorter than me
- skinny jeans
- vans
- loves hardcore as much as i do<3
- Tan is optional
- Not stupid
^^^ This would be the ideal girl for me. But i make exceptions for gorgeous, nice girls that aren’t scene(x
Can't fucking wait
Til i move to santee, lose touch with all my friends, go to school in the summer, fail driving school, stay sober, and stay in my room b/c i have nothing better to do.
Life sucks as it is, but things are about to get a whole lot worse. I fucking hate everything. All i do is sit in my room as more people abandon me each day. I feel like dying. On top of all that, i broke my thumb so i cant do anything even when i am sitting in my room. I’m bored, broken, and lonely. I fucking hate that i cant do a goddamn thing about it either. The girl i like cant stand me, the few people that do still care about me are either far away or are too lazy to keep in touch or give effort to hang out. Not sure what to do to even help myself anymore. Fuck pity i don’t need any ones help, but my own options are running out themselves.
Fuck everything.
It's times like these...
that I wish you actually gave a fuck.
Blue's Clues
Remember Steve?
Reblog and click on that picture.
And remember Joe?
Reblog and click that picture too.
Y o u . . .
You have a problem with me or the way im acting, tell me. You start feeling differently and i still have the old idea, tell me. You think i’m made of stone and don’t feel anything that you say? then fuck you. You’re so fucking annoying with everything you fucking do. I try to be positive and tend to your needs when your down, but all you can do is be ungrateful. Then you go off and act happy and stress free with every other fucking guy in the world. You’re not mine, but you used to act like it. I didn’t do a fucking thing to you, except be nice and give you my fucking all. After all that, you act uneasy and unsure about me. If u want me, act right; if you dont want me, tell me off and be done with this. BE FUCKING HONEST. Thats all i ask of anyone ever, especially you. I should really stop caring and just say bye forever, but i can’t just leave without a clear exit. It doesn’t make any fucking sense, and neither do you. I can’t make up my fucking mind ?! You’re the one that goes back and forth on me, i havent done that ONCE. I’ve been straight forward and honest this whole time. I don’t understand why you feel the need to fucking lie to me all the goddamn time and then lie even more when i ask you about certain issues. No one has made me this aggravated before. I’m so fucking irritated with this whole situation. Everytime i ask you about it, you act confused and you say bye. I wish you would just be up front about it and tell me the fuck off. YOU need to tell ME what the fuck is going on now. Cuz i sure as hell have no fucking idea anymore. Go off with someone else, and just watch how many fucks i’ll give. You’re a fucking disgrace, and the soul reason for heart break. After we’re done, stay the fuck away from me and try your best to keep me from hearing of you. And if you can’t even do that for me, at least be honest. If you still can’t do any of those things, you’re a hopeless human being and i hope you get what you deserve, you lying, pathetic excuse for a crush.
I don't feel good anymore.
There's always that one person. No matter how many relationships they've had, how many times they didn't respond to your text, how many times they ignored you, how many times they made you feel like you didn't matter, how many times you sit on the floor crying because of them, or made you feel like shit; no matter how many times you say they don't matter. Deep down, every time that they text you, look at you, give you a hug, even just say your name; your walls break down and you can't help but be happy. Even if you don't want to be.
There is no point
In trying anymore.
I'm done.
Not sure what to think right now. She says “she doesn’t have time for a boyfriend” which is code for she wants someone else. I’d probably be able to handle it a little better if she told me the fucking truth. But instead, she has to lead me on with false hope. But luckily, I’m smarter than that; I’m done dealing with her bullshit. There’s no point anymore. She says she still likes me and still cares, and admitted she made a “big mistake” but I don’t buy any fucking part of it. I can’t tell her straight to her face because, honestly, that would be mean and I don’t have ‘mean’ in me. But she should get the message when i stop talking to her. If she wants to make it up to me and talk to me, and make the effort to actually be with me, then so be it. I would give it another try, but I have a bad feeling that it’s never going to happen, so I’m deciding to just live without the girl i like. It fucking sucks, but shit happens and I have to learn to deal with it. All i can do is hope; hope for a change of heart in her and hope she would feel the same. I don’t know what to even say to her anymore. I’m done with the beginning flirting and so is she. We’ve been through that already. And I suppose she just got over like she gets over all the other guys she flirts with. I should’ve seen this coming, but I didn’t and now I’m fucked. My fault for falling for it, but her fault for being this way. I hate this, i hate this feeling, but most of all, i hate NOT being able to hate her. She’s too amazing. And i can’t have that. Fuck life. :[
Eh
Things were going great. I had my girl and she had me. And now I lost her. She said “it wasnt the right time”. She says she still cares and still likes me but i know its a load of bullshit and that there’s another guy. And i honestly would care alot less if she didnt lie about it. But now that she wants me to think there’s hope, is just sickening and makes me want to fucking die. This just isnt fair. I like her so much, and over the past couple weeks ive grown accustomed to her little things and all her mannerisms and all that. And now they’re all gone and so is she. I was finally getting somewhat comfortable and it just fucked over. She said she couldnt handle it right now. That a relationship was too much for her plate right now. I CALL BULLSHIT. I wanna be okay b/c it was only 2 weeks or so and it shouldnt mean alot to me. But im the kind of person that becomes attached… fast. So it does and it fucking sucks. I would need a miracle to get her back, so God i pray to you, please let me have another chance. <3 This is killing me…
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So weird.
People complain that in relationships, they’ve been told that someone loves them “a little too early”. There’s no timing to life, asshole. Shit happens, when it fucking happens, so deal with it. I know plenty girls that, when told someone loves them, they freak out, break up with the person, and say that the person is weird and crazy. Don’t get me wrong, saying it on the first day or week is fake and isnt real love, but after 2 months you should probably know. Apparently, its frowned upon, but MY reaction if a girl told me they loved me would be… THANK YOU ! haha. Because generally, i am hated and its nice to be loved every once in a while. :b But if you’re going to freak out about it, act like a child and not be able to talk about it, then that makes you look more childish than the person that said I love you in the first place. People are so fucking stupid and fuck faced.
